The WW1 and WW2 conditions and suffering should be revisited by us to remind us of how cruel and inhumane war is sothat we can treat each other better and rather talk things right than fight each other!
Many can learn from your example as to changing for the better and bringing a positive contribution to the people that you come into contact with! 
Wise words, Hennie and thank you for your syrupy compliment.
I am becoming a better man little by little everyday, with a few setbacks along my path.
With the help of friends, some from this forum via email correspondence, I began to see some light awhile ago, though dim, it is a light I'm going to reach for.
I'm happy to announce my jump out of bed nightmares, nightmares so horrible, I'm out of my bed in a defensive pos, it feels like my muscles are in a seizure, brain on fricken fire, visions of electrical currents flying everywhere in my brain, my eyeballs move uncontrollably, I do 360 degree spins up down and around, scanning my room for threats, sometimes I reach for chambered metal, this all happens in very little time

............................. have subsided.

I'm looking forward to some short trips to enjoy and photograph Michigans amazing autumn colors soon and I've decided since I no longer ride snowmobiles, I may jump in my new toy and go explore somewhere much warmer during Michigans winter months, find myself again. I've got a fire under my ass, Hennie, it's time to get my ass in gear and start making some plans, put a little more coin in the coffee cans.